Remaining True to our light is sometimes darn hard.
For the last few weeks, I was feeling awkward and uncomfortable (like a lot of people around me, apparently…) I was facing two challenges simultaneously: I had to learn to channel differently (seems I have reached a new level, which is great, but getting used to the new technique is not a walk in the park…) and I had (and still have to) to learn how to manage my growing “career”.
Which means I got a little lost, amidst all those changes. I began to feel anxious about a bunch of things, whether it was the quality of my work or the multiple opportunities I was being presented. It was going so fast that I was jumping in everything without actually wondering if it was right for me and in harmony with the services I want to offer.
I had a pretty constant feeling of anxiety, but I could not put my finger on it. I figured it would pass once that (darn) transition towards the next stage would be complete. But the Universe decided that before I could get there, I could squeeze in a little life lesson, along the way.
So a few days ago, I got an invitation from a partner to join a kiosk at a big event, to offer mini sessions. I jumped on the offer; I was muy excited.
On the big day, I arrived at the event to find a line up at the entrance of about 300 people, waiting for the doors to open. As soon as I walked in the space, the crashing energy around that room hit me like a ton of bricks. I was standing far from the crowd, but I could not seem to avoid all those competing frequencies. It was, to say the least, uncomfortable. When I arrived in the main hall, it was worse. The vibrations in the room were so electrical that my teeth were chattering.
I began to feel worried about my channeling abilities, in that kind of environment. The day was very difficult; I doubted my sessions, I was uncomfortable and worse, I was not having any fun doing my work. I just wanted to get out of there, which is so unlike me.
As I left, I was eager to chat with my Guides to know what on earth I was meant to learn from this experience. The answer was simple: in the whirlwind of life, I forgot to respect who I really am and what I have to offer. I did not remain faithful to my light.
I suspected that these types of events were not for me, but I figured that I should put myself out there to be known, just like a lot of successful channelers. I also was struggling with my ego; to admit to myself that these events are not for me was not an easy task. Once I got back to thinking about what my strengths are, I could accept better that everybody is different, and therefore we all shine in different lights… that’s what makes life interesting!
So it doesn’t make any sense for me to put myself in a position that makes me miserable; it has a negative impact on the quality of my work and it lowers my vibrations. I was so afraid to miss a golden opportunity, that I forgot that when I am in my light, in an environment that is harmonious with my vibrations, the people who need my services (and my kind of vibration) will find me.
And when I think back on the reasons why I chose this work, suffering in order to succeed was definitively not a part of the criteria. I want to channel because I love to connect with people and their team, I know I can facilitate someone’s journey in some cases and that makes me profoundly happy. I have to remember to use those values as a compass from now on, to always lead me to the right path.
What about you? Do you sometimes have the impression that you forgot what makes you be your best self? That amidst life’s craziness, you a got lost a bit? And do you make decisions according to the material needs, the social pressure, rather than with what makes you happy?
If it’s the case and you need help to reconnect with your light, do not hesitate to contact me for a private consultation!
Have a great week!